Thoughts

I realized I'm someone who needs lots of security and someone who have many trust issues. Sucks to be such a person but I really am. People know what is going through my mind but I can never know what's going through theirs. Maybe, just maybe I hope I'm a mindreader. Trust issues, as many as I have I know it sucks and maybe annoying(?) to know that someone doesn't trust you. But it's just so difficult. Whenever I wanna trust someone I just get this doubtful feeling in my heart. Idk what I'm scare of or maybe I do but why am I feeling this way? Does this happen to everyone or is it just me? I got a feeling maybe it's just me. I know for sure I'm not perfect, everyone isn't. I always try to bring my best to people but I always tend to show my ugly side. Sometimes I don't wanna show my ugly side but things happen and it decides to make it's grand entrance. Hate it so much. Just penning down some of my million thoughts in general, not referring to anyone so don't come asking me who who who. Save it. Like everyone, I hope for the best. Count your blessings people, xx.